Help, I'm Alive

My school’s library lets you check out netbooks

for a specific amount of time. I checked one out today. Kinda scary how much money you’d have to pay if you were to break this thing. But I like using it in the quiet part of the library, not among other noisy computer users.

This netbook definitely killed any ideas of me buying a netbook. They’re just too small. I couldn’t stand it for very long. I also really don’t like word 2007 which is what all the school’s computers have. i need to buy a laptop backpack so i can start bringing my laptop to school.

i think i’m going to buy a hurley one from apple.com. if apple endorses it, it must be of good quality. i was thinking of getting a swiss-gear backpack, but they’re too manly for me. idk, i still haven’t made up my mind.

i have chemistry lecture next at 11:30. there’s this guy from that class here at the library. i can totally see him. he asks a lot of questions that really go nowhere in the lecture. kind of a waste of tinhywme. normally, i encourge people waste time in class by asking random questions. but this professor doesn’t push due dates back—which kinda sucks.

anywho, i’m going to return this thing and head to class.

The day before my first day of college

It’s Sunday and I really feel guilty about cleaning/doing chores on Sundays. I seriously believe that if I do something like that, I’ll ruin my whole week. I’m so superstitious. But seriously, last Sunday I cleaned the gutters and washed the coat I wore to clean the gutters and all this past week I was slacking. Dishes piled up, my room is so messy I find it hard trying to turn off the light before bed because its so messy. So today I’ve decided to take it easy (but I’ve also reminded myself that this day is meant for mass and maturing myself as a Catholic)like any Catholic is supposed to. So I haven’t done any chores or cleaned my room like I’d hoped to have done before I classes started.

Anywho, so, I started the day by finishing breakfast, watching Formula One in Singapore, watching disc one of the first season of Big Bang Theory, and watching episode one of the 4th season of Gossip Girl. I realized that I hadn’t done anything to prep for tomorrow so I made and “academic calendar” from this week to the last week of school from a blank 6”x9”in spiral notebook I found in my bookcase—which took me like two hours, by the way. I have also charged the batteries for my graphing calculator. I still need to pull out my Jansport backpack that I’ve had since 4th grade, and fill the backpack with school supplies, textbooks I’ll need, wallet, keys, and umbrella.

I’m the first person in my family to go to college. So I really don’t know what to expect. I’m praying I won’t have to take medication for my ADHD and still excel in college like I did in high school.

i feel

very anxious. should i walk about 30 minutes to a bus stop that’ll get me downtown in 30 mins or should i take three buses to get downtown. that i only have to walk for like 8 minutes but be standing at a very busy intersection and make eye contact with numerous passengers? 

i can either ride the bus to hospital and get there 30 mins early or just walk for 30 minutes and get there hopefully on time. 

this may sound stupid but i think i’m going to walk the 30 minutes both times. hopefully it’ll calm my nerves. i hate adderall for making me so anxious and thirsty.